I was rummaging for Alif Baa when I saw the white notebook Santina gave to me New Year's Day. It was a gift from her host family she couldn't take and didn't want. It had 1.5 entries, including a summary of my New Year's Eve and how I met my soul mate (???) from South Africa at a kebab shop in Camden and it went on for ages and pages, spilling out with love for England.

There isn't a day really where I don't think about that South African guy, totaaally weird.

Anyway, I am having doubts about being a Bruin. Well that would seem normal if you know me. My indecisiveness and spontaneity are too much for even myself at times. It's still not the right fit, but at this point, I am kind of ready just to graduate and be done so the most likely thing will be I shall stay and graduate from UCLA.

I think I never write in this because I really hate when people read what I write. Writing has been my passion since I was little and the funny thing was I always wanted to be a writer, where people always read what you write...

I have too many journals to keep track of, although this is the fastest method. Oh technology I will never be able to keep up in this race.

The thing that is keeping me going is that in a little over a month from now, I will be in Peru! and that Kate skyped me today AND I got to talk to Noelle and Mowgli! and I am feeling much better after that random excuse to be stabbed with Novocaine (aka mystery lump) has been taken care of, despite missing two lectures :(

I finally also applied for World Cup tickets and after dealing with my father's demands, it is a relief to be stress free regarding that. Let's hope I get the right ones!!!

well goodbye for now, I see that white notebook out of the corner of my eye and I much prefer to abuse my Muji pens on thick slabs of paper maché like paper than to mechanically press buttons and stare at a screen to release my deepest thoughts.

this was swell though. thanks

xx